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Red Tornado.


I am completely exhausted from this weekend, we had a lot of fun and just like the engergizer bunny's we kept going and going and going, the house was a mess but we got it organized before he went home, Mommy had to come get because of the stupid go transit bus driver but that's ok, it meant we got to go have frosty's instead, he's pretty happy to have his Wii at mommy's for a little while, something diffrent and it's a good behavior modification for her.. i actually think we are starting to come together on the same page on some things, it would be nice if i could get work in Niagara and see where that led to, as it is very clear to me I need to be a fixture in my son's life. Unfourtunalty that means that i will and am taking a more mercenary attitude at work esp. on saturday and sunday shifts.. i am sick of not making him my only priority. I care about the kids at work, but i've mentioned before how loyalty is a one way street and i am not sacrificing my son's upbringing for a paycheque.

Current Mood: Content.
It is not flesh and blood but the heart which makes us fathers and sons.

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