Guardians Of Asgaard

I still can't feel a fucking thing and I am supposed to be looking forward to a tommorow that will never come, at least i have been fucking smart enough to prepare for the enviatable and prepare paperwork and alternatives, a smart man is always prepared for armageddon in his personal life, sometime's hard choices and Hard desicions have to come naturally, it's not like I ever chose the easy way out anyways, It has to be a struggle or i am not fufflied, it has to be the way of sorrow and pain, One chooses to be alone so that he does not affect anyone else, it's a good thing that as accostumed to the revolving door of people in my life that the children I look after, or at least did, have the same mentality... you fucking wonder what in the world would cause a child to have attachment disorder, looking in the mirror at management might help. i never claimed to be anything more than a man but it's getting me that it's real fucking fucking obvious that instead of being on this side of the coin i need to be on the advocacy side of the equation, you cannot create change from the inside... you will only be broken down and have the meat stripped from your bones before they throw you away, and leave you with nothing.

Current Mood: Angry.
Current Music:Amon Amarth - Guardians Of Asgaard
There are levels of survival we are prepared to accept.

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Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.

Fall Of Cybertron III: Where’s Poochie.

It is very easy for me to fade away and just get bored of other people and politics when games are played. I’m not even fucking blinking when someone else who I’ve done things for, constantly for months with no rewards suddenly forgets I exist. That’s real easy for me to fucking deal with. Con politics, games, asshole people that don’t pay there Fuckin promises from day one? Don’t call my number. I stepped away from this shit once on my own. I have no fucking problem doing it again. I feel used and betrayed, but for me it was a Tuesday. I suspect jealousy and politics but I also know when to stick a fork in something when it’s done. I’ve got no interest being around anyone that doesn’t want me involved in there little cliques. I mean this thing was fun but from day one it was political. I don’t need stress and drama in my life. I can hang up my Wizard robe and move the fuck on. I did a great job of it on my own anyways. I don’t look amateur hour like the rest of them. And I no longer

Fuel Injected Suicide Machine.

Pissing me off is never a good fucking option. I have a life and I don’t need to make fucking sacrifices for anyone if I choose not to. I’m getting real fed up with simply being expected to do and arrange things so someone else can have a fucking escape. This is starting to become a fucking pattern in my life. Some I choose to do for, but others, when I’m starting to notice a fucking pattern? I’m gone. I will always be gone. The fact I have yet to step foot in England when I have a secondary place to stay should speak volumes in terms of this freindship and how it’s no longer even. I’m sick of things only being halfway when I’m trying with certain fucking people and I can bail and close ranks and not give a flying fuck about anyone anymore when I’m not being treated with respect esp. given to mine and my brothers financial situation. I don’t mind making sacrifices but I’m still going to make sure that my main fucking priorities are taken care of. I’m not going to pretend to keep th

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