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I Don't Wanna Be Me


Right now things are improving and I don't know what the hell to think, I'm half expecting to destroy a relationship i've spent a year building a year and a half of Trust, when even my employer agree's with me that it's nonsense that i've been called to court... i Just don't understand... let's institutionalize these kids more and prepare them for a life in prison and in the adult court system, To serve and protect my ass, more like to Punish and Enslave, it is going to be interesting to see where this goes, and I think the fucking nonsense surrounding it has saved my job... they can't fire me if i have to go court for them, their's a level of trust that's been forever eroded at work and i'm not sure if the fire's still there... every thing i disagree with, the politics, the high school bullshit, it's all relative.. if i find something that makes me happier i might bolt... but i don't know what to think when it comes to them anymore.

Current Mood: Conflicted.
Current Music: Dreams Destruction, Capsule.

... the growing child must not be treated by those rigid rules of criminal procedure which confessedly fail to prevent offenses on the part of adults or cure adult offenders.

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