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War IV

There is a Time for patience and There is a Time for patience to end. After one of the most depressing weekends i have had in a while in which i actually considered doing something drastic to myself because i was so fucking sad and sick of staring down this never ending black hole, I have decided it's fucking time for me to start fighting back hard...I shouldn't be depressed and hurting I should be channeling this into full frontal rage and I think this week 'm going to, I have certain legal rights that only fucking fear has kept me from enforcing and this week that's going to change... I'm sick of being intimidated. It's time for me to go back to being the intimidating one. There's nothing left for me to do other than rage so i might as well let the anger out and focus it in the direction it needs to go in. there's only one thing at stake, and only one thing that maters. it's time for her to stop hiding behind the system and for me to put that same system to work for me.

Current Mood: Angry.
Usually when people are sad, they don't do anything. They just cry over their condition. But when they get angry, they bring about a change.

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