Skip to main content

Shattered Glass IV: Bizarro World.

I am angry and I don't know what the next step in my evolution is going to be, while things have changed i don't have a clue as to any certainty in my life and I really don't like sitting around being a ball of rage waiting around on phone calls that might never come... the worst part is due to all the confusion in my private life i may or may not have a place i can go and hide and be myself anymore, that may also have been taken away from me due to compassion for another soul or two and respecting their privacy and silence, I want to run away and go home but that place right now is another place where i could Do more Harm than good, I do not see anything at the end of these multiple black holes except for the bring red burn of rage and anger, I know that some of it I have caused myself and I know some of it is not my own fault and i question everything Including my own sanity but I am so fed up with the world right now and it seems to b shrinking and getting smaller, i have serious questions about the validity of my next step and why i sit being an abject warrior when the universe is closing in around me, maybe it's time to let the fates win, Nah....

Current Mood: Lost.
Actions are the seed of fate deeds grow into destiny.

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.
Post a Comment
Read more

Fall Of Cybertron III: Where’s Poochie.

It is very easy for me to fade away and just get bored of other people and politics when games are played. I’m not even fucking blinking when someone else who I’ve done things for, constantly for months with no rewards suddenly forgets I exist. That’s real easy for me to fucking deal with. Con politics, games, asshole people that don’t pay there Fuckin promises from day one? Don’t call my number.  I stepped away from this shit once on my own. I have no fucking problem doing it again. I feel used and betrayed, but for me it was a Tuesday. I suspect jealousy and politics but I also know when to stick a fork in something when it’s done. I’ve got no interest being around anyone that doesn’t want me involved in there little cliques. I mean this thing was fun but from day one it was political. I don’t need stress and drama in my life. I can hang up my Wizard robe and move the fuck on. I did a great job of it on my own anyways. I don’t look amateur hour like the rest of them. And I no longer
Post a Comment
Read more

Fuel Injected Suicide Machine.

Pissing me off is never a good fucking option. I have a life and I don’t need to make fucking sacrifices for anyone if I choose not to.  I’m getting real fed up with simply being expected to do and arrange things so someone else can have a fucking escape. This is starting to become a fucking pattern in my life. Some I choose to do for, but others, when I’m starting to notice a fucking pattern? I’m gone. I will always be gone.  The fact I have yet to step foot in England when I have a secondary place to stay should speak volumes in terms of this freindship and how it’s no longer even.  I’m sick of things only being halfway when I’m trying with certain fucking people and I can bail and close ranks and not give a flying fuck about anyone anymore when I’m not being treated with respect esp. given to mine and my brothers financial situation. I don’t mind making sacrifices but I’m still going to make sure that my main fucking priorities are taken care of.  I’m not going to pretend to keep th
Post a Comment
Read more