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Dark Energon

Another useless day wasted, when i could have done something productive, however today was my own fault for fucking trusted the word of a supposed freind... how many fucking times will i let him stab in the back and be full of bullshit promises until i'm fucking done with it.. today burned a lot of bridges their, of all the people in my life he is one of the ones that is most aware that this is my fucking income... there's a reason i'm cold and distant around him, he's not the only one but agian with the reevaluation of my life and circumstances it's probaly time to figure out who is the wheat and who is the chaff... i'm getting too old for this shit.. i am frustrated as it is with this fucking thing currently and eating fucking money i don't have because of false promises just makes my attitude towards this shit that much worse. I have real fucking battles to fight... I Don't need false freinds bullshit. I don't need Idiots in my life anymore... and he's king Clown. too many fucking times screwed over, it's time to say fuck off and walk away.

Current Mood: Pissed off.
Current Music: Eminem, Stronger Than I Was
Never sacrifice your class to get even with someone who has none. Let them have the gutter. You take the high road.

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