The Great Darkness Saga II

Still not having a lot of fucking patience with the situation and the more i get bothered about money that doesn't exist yet is the more i start thinking about moving on from this clusterfuck. this fucking ass clown just doesn't get that part of the problem with the old place was the choice to choice to use my house for storage, and now he can't find fucking shit he moved to my house? one day i might just lock the door and make all of his shit disappear, just like the stuff of mine he took to his place apparently did.. i swear i like the money but I don't need half of the fucking stress, and it's completely frustrating that he just doesn't care about anything that doesn't belong to him, just money.. it seems like this is the type of person i attract, it's frustrating that i can find opportunities in my life but they always constantly turn into clusterfucks and end up affecting me personally. maybe it's time to go back to being angry and mean and not caring, if other people don't give a damn it's time for me to do exactly the same... no more being honest or being fair... it's time to be the dirtball i know i can be... I'm sick of the selfishness surrounding me.

Current Mood: Frustrated.
Current Music: Eminem, Rap God.
What do you despise? By this are you truly known.

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Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.

Respite on the Spitalfeilds.

I get to hurt, that’s my curse. I feel everything. And it never goes away. It doesn’t matter if it’s peace of strife. I always miss him. He’s always there buried not so deep inside. Along side that in my heart lies hope. But right now, the price is simply too high to have him in my life. I’m not good with authority or conditions. And attempting controlling me has very negative conquences. So yeah, I’ll be here waiting. I should not hurt this much. Or be this sad. But it’s a fucking pain that never goes away except when it is replaced by anger. And I’m trying to fight that emotion off because bad things happen when I’m angry. And thats my secret Cap, I’m always angry. It’s what controls the hulk inside me from taking out an entire city block. I deserved better. This wasn’t the life I was promised. This is for sure not the life I promised my son. That was taken away from me. I’m not to blame. But I’ll be damned if suffers like an adult the way I had to. I will always be here b...

The Sinner.

I make no Bones that I’m a bad person, and I’m someone who has made mistakes. I take pride in being the bad guy, the villain and most of all a willing sinner. I will take full responsibility for all the things I have done. It’s the one thing I didn’t do I was convicted on. But that was my choice, when I make the gates of St. Peter or the gates of hell I can be judged. After all I have a throne waiting. I hold no illusions as to where I’m headed. The thing is people like you will join me there. I’ll see you on the seventh layer reserved for betrayers. The sad part is that if you remained a fucking ghost I would not have had an issue with you. But you had to make it fucking personal. Father Time has a long memory, and I don’t forget anything. You have some serious skeletons rattling in your closet and I can destroy you. I’m already dead, I’ve already been killed. One shot, Boom. Children’s aid won. Nothing you or anyone else can do, can hurt me. You can only hurt those I care about. And ...

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