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The Purge III

I have now confirmed after tearing apart my entire house that someone has stolen a bunch of games and controllers and other things from me, the more upsetting part isn't that my games are missing, I've been thru that.... the thing that pisses me off is that someone has gone thru my secret hideaway places and stolen the games i had hidden away as gifts for my son, been thru this once, but at least that time i had finger's i could I point... at this point in my life there are two ways to protect myself and the things that only belong to me that i have worked hard for.. it's time to cut some of these fucking elements from my fucking life... I'm not about to have things constantly stolen from me and my little boy... for my crap i can at least go digital.... and keep serial numbers of any electronics, but it's getting harder and harder to know who i want around and who to trust... I'm pretty sure i know exactly who is doing so but i can't prove it. it's time to get away from the material consumerism crap like the video games and dvds and going back to stuff i know that i would notice missing instead of being a crime of opportunity like guitars, which is more the core me anyways, i'm always happier having the metal cranked loud and strumming my guitar... it's time to go back to being me... I'm sick of being angry me for pathetic reasons, i have real reasons to be angry.. not this petty bullshit.

Current Mood: Angry.
Current Music: Eminem, Evil Twin.

Fools take a knife and stab people in the back.
The wise take a knife, cut the cord, and remove themselves free from the fools.

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Anonymous said…
As hard as I tried,
I could never make you see.
The brightest parts of you,
The darkest parts in me.

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