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Healing...

It's so hard to forget pain, but it's even harder to remember sweetness. We have no scar to show for happiness. We learn so little from peace

There are a lot of recent changes to my life and while not all of them have been compleltly positive the ones that are, are very obvious, When even old wounds all finally healing, even ones i may have caused by my actions when i was younger, it's time to be moving forward and use the positive things i have in my life and keep going and never look back.. it's telling when someone i care deeply about get's upset at a throw away comment about visiting a freind from the old days but I understand, and it's clearly i'm going to care more about the one i'm with than a shadow in my past that has done nothing more but use me and throw me away repeatly... I Care deeply about people and thats one of my fatal flaws, but it's time to be about my family, and the ones that i care about now and the ones that care about me the same in return.. Looking back is just that, History.. there;sno reason to live in the past. for whatever it is, everything in my life has led me to this point and like it or not this is where I am, and right now I am content. I'm about to make another major change in the status quo in my life when it comes to family and I'm finally prepaerd for that, and hopefully soon that leads to even more positive things coming and two little buitiful souls will get to hang out and chill.

Current Music: Survivor, Eye of the Tiger
Current Mood: Happy.

Time you enjoy wasting is not wasted time.

Folks are usually about as happy as they make their minds up to be

If more of us valued food and cheer and song above hoarded gold, it would be a merrier world

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