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Just like there's always time for pain, there's always time for healing

Today was long time coming and the first time in years i have actually shed tears of joy, there are dark tunnels in my life but once in a while a huge light opens and things in my life change for the extreme better, today was one of the best days of my life and an experience that will never ever be forgotten. there isn't much else i can say, other than i am extremely content and happy with a vast majority of things in my life. now i just need to complete the puzzle with the missing puzzle piece. it was pretty cool giving him his kreo's and and his animated transformers.. he loved em, and better yet he adores me and the feeling is mutual and I will miss him. i need to start doing the Windsor visits more often, because now i have reasons to go home and better than that, I've been invited to do so. IT was an awesome day, even if it was just simpler things we did, but that's not the memory he will have of today that will be important.

Current Mood: Happy

The way you help heal the world is you start with your own family

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