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Halls Of Illusions.





I live in the real world. I don't live in the fairytale world where you think you can hurt and destroy people without consquences. Oh no, your not happy and not at peace because of your life and you choices. I'm not going to let you upset my life and my peace. I've tried hard enough and watched you destroy enough of my freindships and relationships. No more.

I can't live in your fucking world because it doesn't fucking exist... and you've probaly dragged my child down the rabbit hole with you. I have tried hard enough. I'm done.

I hope your illusions keep you warm at night and i hope they will be there to comfort you at the end because there is a very good fuckin chance that i won't be. You can only hurt a man so much with your bullshit. I will walk away and forget your fucking name. It's happened before. I have no fucking qualms about doing it agian.

I'm done fighting with you. I'm done entertaining these illusions on your life you take as your reality. Its a fucking ghost story, and my promise is just that. A promise to always be there. Promised to someone who is no longer here. Just because i will always answer the phone doesn't mean I'm going to spend my life waiting on a illusion.

Not this time. I am Done.

Current Music: Within Temptation, The Reckoning.

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