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Bela Lugosi's Dead.


Yeah, not a lovely start to a new year.. i am finding myself agian being fucked around at work in terms of stats and hours... i need to find myself a new job and fast, i am not going to be living on the edge this year and dealing with the nonsense that charactarized the last few months, I am trying to remian positive for me, my family and my son. if the bullshit at work continues unabated the way it has recently for my sanity and for the health of people around me maybe it's a good idea that I move on and quickly... i would rather starve on unemployment than starve and have to clock into work when the fates deign that i am needed at work, this is currently getting fucking ridiclous that they are not paying stat holidays? what the fuck? i work them and then i don't get paid them? i'm really not understanding the logic here..MaybeI should make myself unavailible agian by working at fast food, maybe i should just get another job so i don't have to deal with the goverment just to pay my fucking rent every few months, the only reason this christmas didn't turn to shit was thru the contribuitions of family and still i'm fucking miserable... that doesn't make sense.

Current Mood: Drained.
They had forgotten the first lesson: that we must be powerful, beautiful, and without regret.

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