New Super Mario Bros. Wii.

Feeling a little better, if you hadn't guessed by the name of this post Easter is No longer a problem, took in some old ps2 games that neither of us play anymore and traded up for new mario brothers and mario party 8... so I don't have to buy little man anything for easter which is pretty cool... games i don't play.. brand new games for an easter present still wrapped up... you tell me which was the better idea. now all i have to do is buy some chocolate bunnies Hahaha. I found out today I might be getting full time nights for a while because someone is going on vacation the more I think about even if it affects me in the short term, it probaly is a positive. I still have to think about myself and my son first but maybe just maybe if i can turn a dark morning into a productive afternoon things can and will change this year for me.. i am defintley feeling the need to break out of the shell i have currently been in.. i shouldn't just accept things as they are there is a needfor personal and political change in my life... i need to become more active in the things I believe in.

Current Mood: Optimistic.
There are many things that we would throw away if we were not afraid that others might pick them up.

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Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.

Respite on the Spitalfeilds.

I get to hurt, that’s my curse. I feel everything. And it never goes away. It doesn’t matter if it’s peace of strife. I always miss him. He’s always there buried not so deep inside. Along side that in my heart lies hope. But right now, the price is simply too high to have him in my life. I’m not good with authority or conditions. And attempting controlling me has very negative conquences. So yeah, I’ll be here waiting. I should not hurt this much. Or be this sad. But it’s a fucking pain that never goes away except when it is replaced by anger. And I’m trying to fight that emotion off because bad things happen when I’m angry. And thats my secret Cap, I’m always angry. It’s what controls the hulk inside me from taking out an entire city block. I deserved better. This wasn’t the life I was promised. This is for sure not the life I promised my son. That was taken away from me. I’m not to blame. But I’ll be damned if suffers like an adult the way I had to. I will always be here b...

The Sinner.

I make no Bones that I’m a bad person, and I’m someone who has made mistakes. I take pride in being the bad guy, the villain and most of all a willing sinner. I will take full responsibility for all the things I have done. It’s the one thing I didn’t do I was convicted on. But that was my choice, when I make the gates of St. Peter or the gates of hell I can be judged. After all I have a throne waiting. I hold no illusions as to where I’m headed. The thing is people like you will join me there. I’ll see you on the seventh layer reserved for betrayers. The sad part is that if you remained a fucking ghost I would not have had an issue with you. But you had to make it fucking personal. Father Time has a long memory, and I don’t forget anything. You have some serious skeletons rattling in your closet and I can destroy you. I’m already dead, I’ve already been killed. One shot, Boom. Children’s aid won. Nothing you or anyone else can do, can hurt me. You can only hurt those I care about. And ...

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