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Rage!!!


More and more I am wondering why i am allowing myself to merely eke out a living at a place where i no longer feel respected and i feel that i know exactly who is playing the political game agianst me because i am at odds with his very prison style idealogy, i can't say anything because of the fact this person is a supervisior... i feel even when i say something to the higher ups that it falls upon deaf ears... if staff are dealing with conflicting idealiogies and mixed signals from this so called supervisor who is merely creating power struggles between staff to establish his dominace, how does this affect the clients? obviously they are also feeling the mixed signals when they are given two constrasting directions often more times than the staff are, it's also very obvious this person ignore their basic rights and has centered one of the clients out. It is becoming very clear to me that i am no longer comfortable at my current place of employment and that this person is targeting me to get me to move on and find another place of employment. it's one thing to have him targeting a client and addressing my concerns to a boss, when I feel he's targeting me in a fashion that borders on harrassment I am almost wondering if the job is still worth it. this is not what I went to school for and not what my ethics stand for, it's clear to me it's getting time to find something else... Soon.

Current Mood: Angry.
Anyone can become angry - that is easy, but to be angry with the right person at the right time, and for the right purpose and in the right way - that is not within everyone's power and that is not easy.

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