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Rage II.


It's nice to have people around me that understand when I am going through rough times. It's not so nice to have people that are fucking me over because they can. By the end of this week someone I trusted may get his teeth kicked in. He picked the wrong week to fuck with me. i have a hard time controlling my anger and I end up sarcificing time with my son because of money issues it's not a good time to be around me or attempting to leech off me because i did him a favor. I no longer trust this person and am having some definte feelings of anger and revenge towards this asshat. i'm just glad that's tempered with positive emotions from elsewhere.

Current Mood: Angry.
He who angers you conquers you.

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