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Watch The World Burn.

I have No patience right now for the world around me, and the people immediately in it... I should not be feeling the way I do and being the problem solver for people that aren't my fucking concern, i have my own problems issues and things to do, right now several people in my life who are irresponsible in their actions have caused ,me great distress and I should not be doing all the work for so little credit on both fronts... I have real life battles to fight and my own concerns, Right now i shouldn't be nero fiddling while I watch the world burn... Some men do want to watch the world burn, but that's not me...i just want to disappear and find some inner peace... my life has been a clusterfucker for far too long and it's time to start growing some teeth, dealing with my problems and not others and not pipe dreaming about petty things... I live in the real world, people live voilent .lives and die voilent deaths, It's not pretty out there.. I need to do what i need to do in my life to make it better not anyone elses... i've seen and been the dark side of the coin... I know exactly my standing in life currently and what has caused me to be this way.. and I've got her directly in my sights.. but it's time this week and next to pull on my motorcycle boots and start kicking some ass... being angry has always been Fuel for the engine... It's time to put that in a even more direct and forward direction... If I light a match the fire will grow...

Current Mood: Angry, Annoyed, Hate.

Enemies make us watchful of ourselves and induce self-examination; for we must argue thus: our foe hates us with reason or without reason; if without reason, then he not really hates us, but some other sort of person for whom he mistakes us; but if with reason, then it is plain we should improve, and remove the reason.

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