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Another Endgame.

There has been an unexpected and Interesting devolpment today, and it's very telling to see what the end result will be.. if anything it only makes my case stronger and it leads to some serious question's over the handling of certain things over the past few years... I almost wonder how this will affect everything and if someone left the situation because they did not want to be on the losing end and now someone unknown has taken the place... That's fine... I may be at war with her... But I'm also at war with them, and I've known them a lot longer, I know exactly how to fight back and win agianst them, my whole life has been decicated to being someone who could change them, whether from within or without, either way they are the gasoline... And I am the flame... I have even less to fear than I once did... This battle is mine to lose and the more machinations that go on behind the scenes the more it leads me to wonder where does the battle end... because it's coming.. every day.. clocking closer....tick... all it is another devolopment in a lieftime full of them, but i don't know what gave them the right to stall this long and suddenly change represenataion, i will not abide any further stalling... it's time to end this... Win or Lose.. and i'm not fucking planning to lose... on either front. this is the end game.

Current Mood: Determined.
Current Music: Endgame,Megadeth

Many have stood their ground and faced the darkness when it comes for them. Fewer come for the darkness and force it to face them.

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