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Cybertron: The End.

...And one of the three endings has happened... i am operating at a fucking deficit after dealing with 3 different assholes this business is connected to, all supposed friends... I'm fucking done... it's all going into a storage locker and if i am to continue in any form i will take a days pay cash up front or I'm completely done... I'm not working my ass off to see money spent and me actually owing money after a 2000$ weekend, it's not worth it anymore... i have fractured emotions with friends and family, many of which have saved my ass more than once, the warning signs have been there for months, i should have gotten out of this game the first time it majorly fucked up my personal life, I'm not good with warning signs, but i nearly walked out this morning because i was going to to have a mental breakdown for the first time in my life, when things and people start affecting my mental health and relationships with my family... it's time to be done... i stuck around for the non exsistant payoff and at least accomplished what i needed to do past that, fuck it, I'm done. An End.



Current Mood: Exhausted
Current Music: Eminem, Survial

Wait, let me remind you of what got me this far, picture me quitting
Now draw a circle around it and put a line through it, slut

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