No Accountability

..And people are starting to wonder why I don't give a shit about my job anymore, I mean why should I when I am trying to get someone to do the expected routine and he is refusing and then you come in and cut my fucking balls off, no that's all right little boy please go to school late, we won't give you a consquence for being late. No wonder these kids don't fucking respect us. Management allows them to walk all over us even in the new house. And then to hear if this little thing isn't done in terms of cleaning there may not be hours for me anymore? I mean i understand to clean the place but i think the fucking dishes and the garbage baskets can wait till they go to school don't you think? I've already been laid off for no reason once this year.. you wanna take away my ours and/or fire me for not cleaning up because i'm too busy preparing breakfast and lunches for someone who's slacking off and is not taking responibility for himself? I mean who will answer to his fucking workers at the CAS or the Ministry? Yeah I think we know exactly whose gonna be the one crucified on that cross when push come to shove and we know that it won't be a member of management. you want to fire me? you wanna lay me off agian? just make sure my fuking ROE is in within a week... I'm tired of this fucking bullshit and nonsense. maybe i should just go home to Niagara and try and eek out a living flipping burgers full time... here's the joke I'd probaly make more money... better than this mickey mouse organization.

Current Mood: Angry.
Maybe you don't like your job, maybe you didn't get enough sleep, well nobody likes their job, nobody got enough sleep. Maybe you just had the worst day of your life, but you know, there's no escape, there's no excuse, so just suck up and be nice.

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Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.

Respite on the Spitalfeilds.

I get to hurt, that’s my curse. I feel everything. And it never goes away. It doesn’t matter if it’s peace of strife. I always miss him. He’s always there buried not so deep inside. Along side that in my heart lies hope. But right now, the price is simply too high to have him in my life. I’m not good with authority or conditions. And attempting controlling me has very negative conquences. So yeah, I’ll be here waiting. I should not hurt this much. Or be this sad. But it’s a fucking pain that never goes away except when it is replaced by anger. And I’m trying to fight that emotion off because bad things happen when I’m angry. And thats my secret Cap, I’m always angry. It’s what controls the hulk inside me from taking out an entire city block. I deserved better. This wasn’t the life I was promised. This is for sure not the life I promised my son. That was taken away from me. I’m not to blame. But I’ll be damned if suffers like an adult the way I had to. I will always be here b...

The Sinner.

I make no Bones that I’m a bad person, and I’m someone who has made mistakes. I take pride in being the bad guy, the villain and most of all a willing sinner. I will take full responsibility for all the things I have done. It’s the one thing I didn’t do I was convicted on. But that was my choice, when I make the gates of St. Peter or the gates of hell I can be judged. After all I have a throne waiting. I hold no illusions as to where I’m headed. The thing is people like you will join me there. I’ll see you on the seventh layer reserved for betrayers. The sad part is that if you remained a fucking ghost I would not have had an issue with you. But you had to make it fucking personal. Father Time has a long memory, and I don’t forget anything. You have some serious skeletons rattling in your closet and I can destroy you. I’m already dead, I’ve already been killed. One shot, Boom. Children’s aid won. Nothing you or anyone else can do, can hurt me. You can only hurt those I care about. And ...

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