TERRITORIAL PISSINGS

Public school shouldn't be a place for politics> i think i can understand now why the ex has so many problems with the people she works with and why she is so miserable, it is very clear to me that certian students, I.E. the kids not from lower class and broken homes that can afford to pay for programming get priority, and no one really cares about the others as long as they are kept quiet and out of peoples hair... there are some really deserving kids in my group but because of the actions of the others rightly or wrongly the are all painted with the same brush and my being chewed out by a prinicple is just bullshit when i haven't done anything wrong except speak to someone he asked me to speak to... of course i am now aware she's a shit disturber and i will no longer speak to her.. if she has an issue or the other person playing politics in the program that's paid for they can go to the principal because i am no longer enganging them in conversation so that my words can be used agianst me politically... it's about the kids not about petty diffrences and program conflicts.

Current Mood: Angry.
If a small thing has the power to make you angry, does that not indicate something about your size?

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Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.

Respite on the Spitalfeilds.

I get to hurt, that’s my curse. I feel everything. And it never goes away. It doesn’t matter if it’s peace of strife. I always miss him. He’s always there buried not so deep inside. Along side that in my heart lies hope. But right now, the price is simply too high to have him in my life. I’m not good with authority or conditions. And attempting controlling me has very negative conquences. So yeah, I’ll be here waiting. I should not hurt this much. Or be this sad. But it’s a fucking pain that never goes away except when it is replaced by anger. And I’m trying to fight that emotion off because bad things happen when I’m angry. And thats my secret Cap, I’m always angry. It’s what controls the hulk inside me from taking out an entire city block. I deserved better. This wasn’t the life I was promised. This is for sure not the life I promised my son. That was taken away from me. I’m not to blame. But I’ll be damned if suffers like an adult the way I had to. I will always be here b...

The Sinner.

I make no Bones that I’m a bad person, and I’m someone who has made mistakes. I take pride in being the bad guy, the villain and most of all a willing sinner. I will take full responsibility for all the things I have done. It’s the one thing I didn’t do I was convicted on. But that was my choice, when I make the gates of St. Peter or the gates of hell I can be judged. After all I have a throne waiting. I hold no illusions as to where I’m headed. The thing is people like you will join me there. I’ll see you on the seventh layer reserved for betrayers. The sad part is that if you remained a fucking ghost I would not have had an issue with you. But you had to make it fucking personal. Father Time has a long memory, and I don’t forget anything. You have some serious skeletons rattling in your closet and I can destroy you. I’m already dead, I’ve already been killed. One shot, Boom. Children’s aid won. Nothing you or anyone else can do, can hurt me. You can only hurt those I care about. And ...

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