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Facing the Demon....

I have been more silent recently than usual and that may continue to be a trend in 2013, as I have keeping my emotions, my rage and my thoughts closer to the vest than usual as It is time for the battle to continue and for the battle to end... I have faced my best and worst demons and I know that on any fucking day I am stronger than any of them, except for the one given form, the one that hates me more than any other mortal person on this earth, I have given other people reason to hate me, But She is the only one I know that has given me reason to hate her completely... But that battle is not over, and I am not damned, I will face the demon and her delusions head on, without backing down, without violence.. I will fight, I will defend myself and The little person most important in the middle of this... but i will not stoop to her level, I will not play her game... it's time for action, It's time for victory... I haven't walked away even as tired as I am of the game... I'm not about to now at the pinnacle of the battle... you may be able to destroy a man, but you can not defeat me, not where it counts, not inside my soul. only I choose my fate and only can destroy the tattered remains of my soul by giving up and letting you win... and that is something I cannot allow.

Current Mood: Depressed, Militant.
Whether you end up in heaven or hell, it's not God's plan it's your own.

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