Queen of the Reich VII

.. And we are moving forward but somehow still in reverse, nothing like going up In the court and watching her say all the nice things and fully expect her to do nothing, of course that's why you have to be ready to move a few moves ahead in a chess game and have all your bases covered, while I am angry that only a little movement was achieved today she has show her hand of cards and the little advantage she thinks that she has is whittling away and will eventually destroy her, I'm just getting sick of the game and of the battle... I grow weary and it is almost like she enjoys it... soon I will have the information in hand to prove her half truths and misconceptions, and it might be time to bring a third hand into play, something to give me another advantage... there is only so long you can hide and after 2 years I am fucking sick of it.... to hear that it might be six months or longer, and we all know that their will be stall tactics....I'm not sure how much longer I can stand strong.. I'm not the Evil one here...I'm not the one destroying Lives here...at the end of our journey I'm not going to be the one to be Judged.. all of that, and the fact that you have destroyed a life that is not my own, My own is Inconsequential, but His life.. that's an entirely different story altogether... and that's completely on you.

Current Mood: Angry.
The further a society drifts from truth, the more it will hate those that speak it.

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Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.

Respite on the Spitalfeilds.

I get to hurt, that’s my curse. I feel everything. And it never goes away. It doesn’t matter if it’s peace of strife. I always miss him. He’s always there buried not so deep inside. Along side that in my heart lies hope. But right now, the price is simply too high to have him in my life. I’m not good with authority or conditions. And attempting controlling me has very negative conquences. So yeah, I’ll be here waiting. I should not hurt this much. Or be this sad. But it’s a fucking pain that never goes away except when it is replaced by anger. And I’m trying to fight that emotion off because bad things happen when I’m angry. And thats my secret Cap, I’m always angry. It’s what controls the hulk inside me from taking out an entire city block. I deserved better. This wasn’t the life I was promised. This is for sure not the life I promised my son. That was taken away from me. I’m not to blame. But I’ll be damned if suffers like an adult the way I had to. I will always be here b...

The Sinner.

I make no Bones that I’m a bad person, and I’m someone who has made mistakes. I take pride in being the bad guy, the villain and most of all a willing sinner. I will take full responsibility for all the things I have done. It’s the one thing I didn’t do I was convicted on. But that was my choice, when I make the gates of St. Peter or the gates of hell I can be judged. After all I have a throne waiting. I hold no illusions as to where I’m headed. The thing is people like you will join me there. I’ll see you on the seventh layer reserved for betrayers. The sad part is that if you remained a fucking ghost I would not have had an issue with you. But you had to make it fucking personal. Father Time has a long memory, and I don’t forget anything. You have some serious skeletons rattling in your closet and I can destroy you. I’m already dead, I’ve already been killed. One shot, Boom. Children’s aid won. Nothing you or anyone else can do, can hurt me. You can only hurt those I care about. And ...

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