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Queen of the Reich VII

.. And we are moving forward but somehow still in reverse, nothing like going up In the court and watching her say all the nice things and fully expect her to do nothing, of course that's why you have to be ready to move a few moves ahead in a chess game and have all your bases covered, while I am angry that only a little movement was achieved today she has show her hand of cards and the little advantage she thinks that she has is whittling away and will eventually destroy her, I'm just getting sick of the game and of the battle... I grow weary and it is almost like she enjoys it... soon I will have the information in hand to prove her half truths and misconceptions, and it might be time to bring a third hand into play, something to give me another advantage... there is only so long you can hide and after 2 years I am fucking sick of it.... to hear that it might be six months or longer, and we all know that their will be stall tactics....I'm not sure how much longer I can stand strong.. I'm not the Evil one here...I'm not the one destroying Lives here...at the end of our journey I'm not going to be the one to be Judged.. all of that, and the fact that you have destroyed a life that is not my own, My own is Inconsequential, but His life.. that's an entirely different story altogether... and that's completely on you.

Current Mood: Angry.
The further a society drifts from truth, the more it will hate those that speak it.

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