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The Demon King.

I know that I have demons and I know that I have faced more and worse demons than you and emerged from the fire unscathed and I am not without my sins and My things that I regret... But you and that child are never going to be one of them... I don't know what demons drive you to ask this way but i know exactly where my demons guide me.. and why the do...I hold no illusions about where I'll end up at the end of my life... but I know that day isn't for a long fucking time... and I won't be damned for things I have not done, Not on this on this earth and Not beyond. I know exactly there darkness and anger and rage in my soul.. and this are things that drive me... these are things that keep me whole.. I've seen real evil in this world.. and why I may never be a part of it.. proving otherwise is a terrible fucking burden so I have to stand tall and Fight and let the battle continue... my demons have come very close to consuming me...but I enjoy burning in the fire... I can channel that, just like My anger and all that I have endured in this life... I have to thank you, you have made me stronger by exposing me to everything I have forgotten in my life.... the knife edge with the rage against the system long since dulled by complacency has returned... I know exactly Who I am now... And I can use all of the dark and angry energy in a positive way not only to defeat your dark scheme and the system but once it's said and done I can use that rage to help others.. rather than being accepting of the world and my place in it... complacency and security made me lazy.. i hung on to a job i hated and where injustice was a daily thing but no one batted a fucking eye and I never spoke out because I wanted my fucking minimum wage an hour...now i realize what a failed attempt that was. I am changed, there will be no going back, I am no longer at Peace... and I kinda like it that way... reminds me of exactly who the fuck I am. The best Part is I no Longer fear losing anything... you've taken the only thing that matters away, again... for far too long... and unless you kill me, I will never ever be taken out the equation... and it will take a better woman than you to do so.

Current Mood: Determined.
Current Music:Within Temptation, Lost.

You don't fear death. You welcome it. Your punishment must be more severe.

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