I am angry, But I am also determined... I know who the enemy And i can see that Clearly.. My life is not dictated by mindless rage... I do not blindly follow my emotions.. I follow only what emotions i need to to get the inevitable conclusions. Tomorrow is a big day, it is the first time i have seen some light in the road weary battle in a long time... this battle I am sick of fighting but again just as determined to win, and never give up.. Another chess piece has been added to the game, another strategy another part of the game... another piece move closer to eventual checkmate. you may be able to break me down but you can and will not break me... and even though i may have to humble myself and open up to those I do not trust, esp. pawns of the system it's a noble sacrifice that I do for clarity and to clear my name... that's the determination in my eyes... that's all I have left... and it will not be snuffed out. Tommorow is one of the first steps towards Final victory. I know exactly who My enemies are.
Current Mood: Determined.
Not a lot of people know what it feels like to be angry, in your bones. I mean, they understand, foster parents, everybody understands, for awhile. Then they want the angry little kid to do something he knows he can't do, move on. So after awhile they stop understanding. They send the angry kid to a boy's home. I figured it out too late. You gotta learn to hide the anger, practice smiling in the mirror. It's like putting on a mask.
Current Mood: Determined.
Not a lot of people know what it feels like to be angry, in your bones. I mean, they understand, foster parents, everybody understands, for awhile. Then they want the angry little kid to do something he knows he can't do, move on. So after awhile they stop understanding. They send the angry kid to a boy's home. I figured it out too late. You gotta learn to hide the anger, practice smiling in the mirror. It's like putting on a mask.
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