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Dead Man's Hand II

I am seriously getting fucking sick of this nonsense and these threats, I am seriously considering giving fucking notice and moving on, i have been trying to be a free spirit and deal with this shit and just let the chips fall where they may but threats and intimidation doesn't fucking work for me... you have done nothing to improve the house and you have had me working out in the fucking yeard and have wasted several entire weekends and have requested that i go above and beyong for you including taking my own personal situation at great fucking risk, I am seriously fucking considering moving on, the threats continue and i will call it a mother fucking day, i am not about to endure this shit.. My life has already fucking crumbled underneath my feet, it's seems any fucking time I get any fucking semblance of normality shit changes, I will not be intimidated or made to fear anyone or anything... I have enough fucking intimidation from my former partner, which I constantly finding brick fucking walls in trying to access services for me and my son to resume that relationship the way it is supposed to be, it doesn't help when information is not being shared and a court apperance becomes a clusterfuck clicking down to the last second, when i have sat the night before doing a last minute favor. I am going to start taking some time away from my house and visitng freinds and loved ones and making a semblance of normality to my life, I can tell when I am not wanted and appriacted and I can tell when someone is trying to convince me to move on, I don't need to be told twice... obviously the rules are not being followed and the fact that this relationship could have deathly legal inplications for both of us, and affect me adversly has me seriously considering my fucking options at this point... this month will be the breaking point... i do not respond kindly to threats from Anyone.

Current Mood: Very Angry.
A man man may dwell so long upon a thought that it may take him prisoner.

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