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I'm Broken...


We got lost along the way... But I looked into the abyss and it fucking looked into me right back. That abyss was you... And I am never fucking coming back. That ship died a fucking Viking funeral a very long time ago.

I don't know how much time I have left but I will be damned if you're manipulation pushes me to the brink where I just want to end it all. I'm not that fucking coward and he deserves better. But you deserve nothing from Me. Not anymore.

I used to think I had something to prove, that if I made you proud of me I'd be worthy of you're love. I was deadly fucking wrong. The truth is you never deserved me.... I'm better than you and you destroyed me for it.

I'm a fucking fool for still being in love with you but at least the knife was expected this time... And this time you cut so fucking deep that you took it all away agian.

Enjoy my heart it's the last thing of mine that belongs to you.... But it's dead now.

This nostalgia trip was fun. I hope you got what you needed from it. Satisfaction, revenge whatever, you're porogative, I got what I always get... I get to feel empty. I get to be broken. I'm done feeling guilty for failing you as a husband or a lover. That's completely on you. You did this to us.

Not me. I'm just playing for it.

Till the day I die. you will haunt me, you made that perfectly clear.

Guess like everything else you've given me I'll just have to fucking learn to live with it.

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