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Torn II: True North


I am no longer torn. I know who my soulmate is. It's just about getting there. We've both been lost for so longer we just have to figure everything out. It's not going to be an easy road and it's nothing I want more in my life. I just have to figure it out. But there is nothing I want more. I've always know that you are my soulmate. No questions there.

All this time we spent fighting when we shouldn't have been. I've got no more room in my heart to fight. Only for whatever comes.

No more wandering in the wilderness. I don't hold any illusions but I'm not giving up hope either.

I've held you in my arms, I know what it means. I've been waiting a very long time for that moment. Knowing that you have to... It's everything.

This is what it's supposed to be I think. We just lost our way.... Maybe we can find it agian.

I know where my true home and family is. I'd just forgotten. You have and always have been the only thing that makes sense in my life.

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