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Black/White.

I see things in very black and white terms and their is no shade of grey, it's annoying to see friends that i care about and their fucking lives making decisions that i know will end badly, i get it when i visit here I'm living in fairytale land, but i do not do that all of the time, some people do.. maybe that's the source of my problems but it's sad to see when someone around me is doing the exact same thing in an effort to destroy any happiness.... i can't sit here and be Samson and help deal with your issues when I can't even actively deal with my own, trying to be the peacemaker in a situation doesn't help when i have the voice of experience, but I'm fucking bitter and when both parties are playing fucking games and putting me in the middle what the hell should I do, yet another thing i hate about Windsor is for every solid person i know their are ten fake people, and I'm not taking a side as you are both friends but someone's acting fake in the equation... and that's not fair.. move ahead or move on....

Current Mood: Annoyed.
When one door of happiness closes, another opens, but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened for us.

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