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Darkness Rising II

I am one step away from walking away from everything and saying fuck it.. the battles are not worth it anymore.. my things are being withheld damaged and destroyed and no one cares... I worked fucking hard for things to turn to shit and you know what, it's just as fucking easy for me to walk the fuck away from everyone and everything and start over.. I have stopped fucking caring.. I'm Sick Of being the bad guy, I'm sick of being the Criminal, I'm sick of trying to play by the rules to have some selfish Cunt whoever it might be at the time dictating what I'm supposed to be doing with my stuff and i'm just sick of my life.. all my life i worked hard and tried to be something better and now I'm just looking at the fact that I've done nothing majorly wrong and I'm getting walked all over and having my stuff possibly destroyed or stolen and No one seems to give a damn.. I've stopped giving a damn in return... it's probably time to walk away and stop caring...I'm not caring anymore... I have been treated like a dog for too long in my life.. and now Violently my life is being taken away from because of selfish cocksucker? it's probably time for me to look deep within my fucking darkness and let it become a part of me.. what the fuck is the point of material possessions when someone can use the law to steal them from me... I give up, I just don't care anymore. there's no point.. I'm staring into the darkness and the void and it's not staring back.. it's a fucking mirror. no longer am I going to allow anyone into my life that doesn't deserve to be there.

Current Mood: Angry, Rage, Depressed.
Current Music:Pantera, I'm Broken
You will not be punished for your anger, you will be punished by your anger.

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