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Darkness Rising....

The patience level is fucking gone...if any of my fucking shit is stolen or missing there will be some serious criminal charges laid...apparently some bitch has taken it upon herself to pack my things and place them in a less secure area of the house... this is a fucking nightmare and has been for some time... there is no fucking point anymore in giving a damn about anything, I am trapped in fucking limbo and I don't know what the hell I am doing other than the fact that someone has seriously damaged me for no good reason other than jealousy and greed, and it's fucking sad. i don't take grievous wounds lightly and I will seriously fuck up anyone who decides to affect me or my children's stuff with malicious intent... this is fucking bullshit... all i ever did was help this woman and her family... and now she is directly trying to affect me by doing damage... i am not patient nor am I happy right now.. if anything has been damaged or stolen I plan to raise hell... I'm no longer staring into the darkness and waiting for it to look back... it am completely immersed in the void, it is a part of me.. what the fuck is the point of being able to without anger and rage when my life keeps getting turned to shit and more and more damage is happening to my life.. one day i will loose complete control of my fucking emotions and when that day comes.. look out.. i will have given up... I will no longer care... and that day is Coming.... soon.

Current Mood: Depressed.
Confront the dark parts of yourself, and work to banish them with illumination and forgiveness. Your willingness to wrestle with your demons will cause your angels to sing. Use the pain as fuel, as a reminder of your strength.

A new wound makes all the old ones ache again.

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