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RAGE V

I am still angry and disillusioned I am just handling it better today due to the fact that i may a minor comfort from my belongings that i can use to express my frustrations, the world isn't a fair place and in twenty fucking years I have not had to deal with an injustice such as this even when I am trying to go thru the correct channel to deal with, the sad fact is that i have no rights in the situation which fucking sucks.. and some of the people at an administrative level are passing the buck in terms of responsibility, there's a reason i dislike fucking authority... If you had my life and dealt with everything that I have dealt with in my fucking life you would distrust and dislike authority... there's a reason I'm an Asshole and I stand apart, these are continuous themes in my life because there is no fucking point in Bothering to deal with anyone else on any level... I know Who I am, For the most part I know where i Stand in this world, I have done a good job of bottling up my anger and trying to be productive about it, there have been some times recently when that has not been the right decision, but The worse case scenario is what might have happened had I LOST SAID TEMPER.... I know I have one and that's why sometimes i reach for solitude but right now some of that solitude is being denied me, at least today I did try and focus some or all of that rage in a positive direction, even it it ended up being fucking futile.

Current Mood: Numb, Anger.
Great men are forged in fire. It is the privilege of lesser men to light the flame.

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