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Dark Energon III: Urban Legend of Zelda.

The patience level is so not there lately nut i go thru days where i can get annoyed, depressed and angry and just sit around do nothing... and this gig is stressing me out but i am not even fucking blinking at expressing myself when I'm being pressured... even superman has fucking limits and I'm not even Clark Kent... the more i see of my angrier dark side that i usually use for strength but of late i am feeling spiraling out of control and i know where the anger and hate is mostly directed... Most of the time it's directed with laser pinpoint fucking accuracy at the one or two people that are not part of my life but it is frustrating that people in my life that i do care about but can walk away from need reminders to get their shit together and not be affecting my mental health... I'm not a big fan of starving and when someone asks me to do something make sure it's worth my while.. I fucking hate being poor, But i can survive being poor on my own when I'm responsible for my own actions, when i have to look after someone Else's behaviors or demands, there's an answer for that.. it involves a fucking middle finger straight up. I have enough people to hate in this life time.. and it's hard enough to keep my fucking demons at bay.... and the fire in my heart to continue.. to do the things that matter, everything else is just added distraction or inconvenience.

Current Mood: Determined.
Current Music: Eminem, Stronger than I was.
If you want to forget something or someone, never hate it, or never hate him/her. Everything and everyone that you hate is engraved upon your heart; if you want to let go of something, if you want to forget, you cannot hate.

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