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The Chess Game.

Knowing when to fight is just as important as knowing how.

All this is a Chess game, A series of Tactical fucking Moves one after another Until one person Has the tactical advantage, that's all this is about. At the moment I'm currently lost as to predict your next move, But while I may have taught you how to play this game of war, I did not Teach you My game of war. it's not about the current Move that you're making.. it's the moves you make 6 moves ahead and the moves you make to end the game. I never think about my current move, I only think about your reaction, i know that you Only use your emotions to attack and that logic is a dirty word for you, however for me, after all that you have done, all there is patience and carefully planned out tactical moves across a bloody chess board, i'm willing to wait and play the game forever if the eventual outcome is check mate rather than the stalemate we have been at for the last half decade. I guess it's part of my nature not to know how to lose.... and make it No mistake I have no intention to, This may be a game of war, but it and always has been my game of war, Mine to win, Mine to lose, you have wounded me deeply, but i still stand strong moving across the board.. all I need to do now is continue to play, and end the game with eventual checkmate... In case you don't fucking understand it's not about how you play this particular game it's about the ending, with you cornered and No place to go.. Trapped, it's all about the Endgame. there are some things in my mind I never taught you, And that you will never understand... but that's the diffrence between us, I have never played the victim and I answer every challenge in this fucking life as it comes to me, I fear nothing, Specifically You, You're soul is blacker than mine even will be, and this is just a game to you, it's time i treated it as such and put an end to it, because It cannot go one forever. It's Not My soul or even yours that Hang's in the balance, there only one person at stake to both of that matters, and I think it's time you started thinking about him. Let's end this.... or let's End This In a Glorious battle, the choice is yours, just know from me, there will be No remorse, No backing down, No surrender, There will be No sympathy about the things you have to hide... I'm not afraid to shed a little skin and bleed a little if it get's me one step closer to checkmate, that's always going to be the difference between us, you're the politician,the one who backs down and try's to manipulate every advantage you might have. I'm the warrior soul, the Soldier,Uncompromising, I'm the one whose not afraid to die or lose for all the right reasons, But I won't fall down on my sword or compromise for any of the wrong ones. It's all about the long game, the one who Wins the war, not who wins the next battle.

Never compromise. Not even in the face of Armageddon. That's always been the difference between us.

Current Mood: Apathetic towards this latest move.
Current Music: ARCH ENEMY - Blood On Your Hands

The whole secret lies in confusing the enemy, so that she cannot fathom our real intent.

War...is ugly and brutalizing, and the nobility is in doing it without becoming ugly and brutalizing.

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