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Day One....

It has been an interesting day so far, and it is fun to watch people who have destroyed me for so long be destroyed by their own words and accusations, this is a battle... the only I am afraid of is losing my son because she decides to flee... but their are precautions in place for that, I have a game plan and we are sticking to it...As long as i hold up my head and follow the game plan and let those motherfucker's including she who shall not be named lose their cool and get frustrated or worse, I'll be fucking fine.. I'm prepared for this, I have no doubt that the outcome will be favorable, I am prepared for the worst... but at this point... it's just another end game with 2 more fucking days where other's and later myself will sweat under the fucking lights... but I have nothing to hide, and that's the final fucking end game.... that's what will end this. This battle, this last three years of Hell, a part of it ends this week.... there isn't anything left right now except to see this fucking thing through and end the situation, these fucking cocksucker's have destroyed the relationship with my child, my career and left me a shell of a man, it is sastifying to watch them squirm and trip over their own fucking words... there is no grey area, One of us here is Evil and One of us is good, and one of us will be exposed for the charlatan that we are.... this has always been between us, you and you alone chose to involve other's, I will never understand the anger and hate you have towards me... but at least for one day, maybe you've had to answer for it.. and maybe another day will answer agian, because at the end of this proceeding and all the other's that we have and will have to deal with for the next eight years... all I have ever tried to do is be His father... And I will Die before I give that Up.

Current Mood: Determined.

Vengeance is Mine, and retribution, In due time their foot will slip; For the day of their calamity is near, And the impending things are hastening upon them

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