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The War XXIV: Stalemate.

To me, you're already dead. Stay away.

Little victories we're accomplished today and things are track, showing that I had support and I that I did not fear a person who is so wrapped up in this illusion i believe that she truly belive's the things she has said and done and is brainwashing my child with, No less than two impartial observers belive that she is truly out of her gourd and that not only am i not capable of any of this, but that when given all of the revelant information they were mind blown that this illusion has continued this long... however.. a few hand's of cards were played today and some of you're illusion's were shown, This game has continued for far too long and it continues...your next step is predicatable but it should not have continued for this long in the first place... you showed your hand and have given me better ammunition for the next step and the other battle... i'm playing all of my cards and all of my chess moves as close to the vest as i can, for what it's worth, this has never been about you and me.. and the line of bullshit you fed the court about my child being fearful and upset of me is either carefully rehearsed bullshit or something you have created in his mind over the last three years...there's a reason only one of us has a lawyer and when you challenge a judge you are wrong... i make a mistake in court I apologize to the crown before continuining on with my statement, you're attempt to talk over a judge is just fucking laughable.. cleary you have no idea what you are doing but attempting to stall the process further.. but a day of reckoning is at hand... it wasn't today or tommorow as expected but it will be coming... remeber... 18 months from now that child will be able to speak for himself.. and some of us have very long pateince levels... I have fought this battle for one thing, and only one thing for so long another year does not matter... when one laungiushes in hell for eternity, what's one more day, month or year.. I will see this to the end and there will be vindication, it's my life, my mind or my soul destroying, it's his... and one day I will prove that. I can wait forever for the second i get to prove that...

Patience is also a form of action.

Patience and perseverance have a magical effect before which difficulties disappear and obstacles vanish.

Beware the fury of a patient man.

There is a reason i keep relationships with freind's as long as i can and i stay in contact with people I care about because you never know when they might need you or in the case of a very old freind today when i might need them, she went in blind today and after finding the details out still had my back, that's what call you call a freindship... that's what you call keeping touch and being good freinds.. you never know when you will need someone... this is why unlike other's i don't burn bridges to ruin when i can advoid doing so... it's about being who I am... I don't change.

Current Mood: Depressed, Angry... Determined.

Virtue is not left to stand alone. He who practices it will have neighbors.

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