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Declaration of Intent


Another lawyer with a week left to go to the eventual vindication and we are now reconsindiring witness's? i wonder how much faith after 3 years the system has in winning their case, wait... I already know I'm going to win... it's just a battle to see how much mud raking both sides are going to do to each other, I and my counsel are ready for this... the fact the other team has been playing lawyer monopoly, among other issues like ethics and whatever leads me to belive that we have the upper hand and let's see what the next fucking move is... but i know this.. I am not boxed into a corner, I have played a trump card that should get the true consipirator at the bottom of the exposed, either she shows up and goes completely batshit crazy or she doesn't.. this battle isn't about her.. but her absense is just as good as i will open up a line of questioning about why someone subpeoened A.) wasn't their witness and instead was mine. B.) And why she isn't there... plus you know theirs a whole contempt charge related to her non apperance... make no mistake Jennifer, I don't expect you to show up... and if you do... that's going to help not hinder my case because it will fucking expose you for what you are.. and every word of yours their will be used as perjury as compared to the family court bullshit you continue to stall. I do expect the shit to hit the fan today or tommorow when you get your paperwork, but it was my decision, and i will have you on the stand making you're wild fucking claims no one has substatianed, i may not belive in the justice or the court system anymore, but one day you will answer for what you have done to that little boy...it's not about saving my soul, at this point it's not even about custody or acess, it's about the next step, it's about clearing my name. it's not my soul i need to save from you, it's his, being able to go back to work and having my name clear is everything i need to do to accomplish that goal. I may have been boxed into a corner at one point but that's not where i am now... it's my turn to end this and make decisions and the chess moves, i'm always two moves ahead of you on the board and million moves away in terms of tactical thinking... this isn't your game to lose, it's not about you... it's time to face the system head on and deal with them on their own terms, it's time to expose the fact that they cannot just destroy people's lives with a signature and get away with it... one game will end good or bad next week.. but i don't intend to lose... I've been a dead souless corpse without anything to keep me going except for the love of my son plus the rage and anger towards her and them for the last 3 plus years, it's time for me to see a light at the end of the abyss.. i keep staring and it's staring back.. but at this point... I think i'm the monster and it's just a reflection, the System is afraid of me, it knows i have seen it's true face. i'm not afraid.

Current Mood: Angry, Determined.
I caught a glimpse of heaven once. The angels showed me. The idea was I'd kill for them. Clean up their mistakes on Earth. Eventually redeem myself. Tried it. Didn't like it. Told them where to stick it.

These are your tools. The rest are the luxuries of the living. The dead don't get music. The dead don't get beauty. The dead don't get flavor, or warmth, or friendship. Because the dead don't feel.

See? It's not how much it hurts. It's how much you think it'll hurt.

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