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Declaration of Intent III: No Remorse

Tommorow is the beginning of what i have been fighting agianst the goverment to attain for three years... It's time to Finish this, good or bad, there will be an ending.. i am prepared for both eventualities but I am also prepared to give them hell because this is the End, I have been waiting for this hearing for almost three years and it is time to end the situation, I have been stuck in hell because i pissed off a social worker and her supervisior and they used smoke and mirrors to destroy my life... for some this wouldn't be a death sentence, for me it has been.. but i have freinds and i have family and they have supported me thru this, even the ones angry at me and not talking to me currently..i respect all of their support, even if this is something i am doing alone... I know that they are their behind me... and some come thru in ways i have not expected... this is a battle long forthcoming and i do not claim to know any of the answers, but i do know that this will be an ending, I have nothing to look forward to tommorow except finally being able to show some of the facts bhind her smoke and mirrors, and her nonsense is ending, I don't want to get into the anger I feel towards her because of recent devolopments because today, tonight that isn't important it is something i can deal with next week, for tonight and tommorow it's time to be centered and focused, this is an ending battle to a war, and it's not agianst her, this battle she was merely a participant, this war is older than the relationship, this war began when i was a child... and because i was a child.. this is merely the next step, this is one of the things that get's him home... at least i will have some answers and some finality and be able to go forward. I'm going to give them Hell, I'm going to show them the same respect they gave me from the beginning, There will be No remorse. this is a final end game for this part of equation their will be no more waiting, no more stalling. this is an END, this is what I need to deal with right now to get my life back, i have been imprisoned but not guilty for 3 and a half years and this will finally be the end of that hell, win or lose i will have finally had a day of judgement... it will not be from behind closed doors that can destroy a man anymore, I will face my enemies and i will not fear them, I never did from the start, I'm not about to back down and show fear now.. I am afraid but not of them.

Current Mood: Determined, Afraid, Angry.

I cannot show remorse because I do not believe I am guilty.

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