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Changing Gears

Why do you go away? So that you can come back. So that you can see the place you came from with new eyes and extra colors. And the people there see you differently, too. Coming back to where you started is not the same as never leaving.

I am saying goodbye to the thing that has dominated my life other than the ongoing battle that still consumes me, but the other thing always had a short shelf life, one i managed to continue for much longer than i ever expected, But this will be the last holiday where it is of any importance because there is nothing left, but that has been the goal the whole time is to end the game, much better to go out happily and not completely miserable rather than the anger and hate that has dominated most of the adventure, a lot of that comes from within, but there is a reality that it was a worthwhile break because before every thing fell to ashes, i was burning out, and now I can go back to the things i am meant to do with new fresh eyes and a perspective that i did not have before, and do the things i was meant to do, everything that i have always fought for, everything that i will continue to fight for, that's the the true lesson at the end of this.. The person i was has changed and the last few years made me stronger, and I have no regrets... I won't be looking back fondly, But i was far and just and never cheated anyone. it's time to go back to the things that make me whole however, because this was just a replacement for being hollow inside and watching the days tick by. I have a new fire, one i have not felt in a few years... I was made for better things, and I still have goals to achieve.

Current Mood: Determined.
Current Music: Eminem - When I'm Gone

Yesterday I was clever, so I wanted to change the world. Today I am wise, so I am changing myself.

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