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Year Of Hell V: All Guns Blazing

The act of walking away from you isn't what hurt the most. But the fact that I gave you everything...and how you slowly...and carelessly..destroyed it.

It's been eleven years since you decided to end our relationship and for most of that time we have been at fucking war, why is it so fucking important to you to destroy any relationship I'm ever going to have with my son, even if you have to destroy everything I am to do it, you should fucking know better, I don't back down and anything you destroy I can, will and have rebuilt. We are heading toward the fucking end and things will change and affect all of our fucking lives forever. I can move forward and no that there is at least one thing I can say and that is there is no fucking fear of you or any eventual outcome, you can't bring me down anymore, and I'm ready for everything you have to throw at me. It's time for this to end, even if it ends both of us. I'm Down for one last battle, are you? I have reached a point where i don't care if I win or lose anymore, Just that he knew I tried and I never gave up fighting for him, I don't expect the next year to be an end to fucking anything, and while I would like it to be, I expect the war to continue for a long fuckin time...... sometimes i think it's the only goddamn thing I have left in my life anymore.. Here's to a new year, not that it matters much to me, as i said before the only thing I mark on new years eve is the fact that the knife was slowly slid into my back eleven years ago and you took the one thing that matters most to me in my fucking life away, I'll never stop fighting for him, and don't ever blame me for your decisions, you Did that to yourself... I have my own Sin's to atone, But I'll Be seeing you soon, and Unlike you I have nothing to fear anymore from the process, all of that has been stripped away from me a long time ago... it's time to face you head on and End this, No more stalling, No more petty politics and No more accepting small victories in lieu of the larger one, It's only the larger one that matters anymore, while he's still got a few moments of childhood left before you completely strip that away from both of us. it's time to face you on yer turf, playing your game, Fully armed, ready for anything, I'm ready, Can you say the same? Let's end this.

Current Mood: Angry, Tired
Current Music: Marilyn Manson - Coma White

All I know is that I will answer malice... with violence.

You have my respect. Whatever that means to you, you got it. But know this shit hard. If ever there comes a time when it gets down to the marrow, and it's you and me...Freind, I will lay you the fuck out.

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