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Till All Are Gone XVII: The Last of Us

The evil we create during the wars to save us, it can also end us when the war is over.

I find it interesting the reality of the game is that It's going end pretty much the same way that it began, almost down to same few sales i first got us in 2013, it's been a tumultuous 3 years and It's been there to help me fight my battles and distract my mind from everyday reality, It's not always been good but I can look back without any regrets or any real anger and be done with it, and Facing facts, it's going to be a new year soon and I'm Done with it, The future of that is not in question, i need to go back to the person I really am. This was wish fulfillment of a dream i had since i was a child but it was never intended to be any type of an adult goal nor should It have been. I can't ever say I cared for the politics or the dishonesty of a few but then again my ultimate goals had nothing to do with collecting any of this plastic crap and to that effect it did it's job for a lot longer than i ever fucking expected that it would, it's now time to move onto the next step, the true battle and end it.. This was only a worthwhile distraction.... and It's done. it's nice to look at the little that is left and see what will be gone shortly and what has went and where and know that I have made others happy even with the hollowness that has followed me constantly on this adventure for the last few years, I'll never regret being given this opportunity for so many reasons but I won't look back on it or seek to return to it at any real point other than the odd thing i find interesting at a local store, a few things will be leftover to symbolize how hard i worked and to stand for something, But the truth of it is that it is over and there won't be any looking back, there were too many ups and downs for it to truly ever have symbolized anything to me other than what it was, a means to a end, a necessary evil.. something to provide for the upcoming battle... I go into the new year with nothing but unknown expectations And a true battle to fight, the last of it will be put away and I will be done with it. time to move onto bigger and better things. I'd rather go back to the person i was than have to deal with this forever. I had some great experiences over these last years and i had a lot of fucking fun with it, but the truth of it there was always someone missing, it's time to rectify that fact.

Current Mood: Fulfilled.
Current Music: Judas Priest- All Guns Blazing

The end always doesn't justify the means you used to reach there.

A day without your child is like a day without sunshine; a month without your child is like a month without laughter; a year without your child is like a year without your heart; a lifetime without your child is like a lifetime without your soul…

That is the nature of endings, it seems. They never end. When all the missing pieces of your life are found, put together with glue of memory and reason, there are more pieces to be found.

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