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My Plague.



When I am being manipulated by people I’m not even sure that I fucking respect in a way that may affect those I care about, there is a good fucking chance I will withdraw and pretend that you don’t fucking exist. I have never had a fucking problem with casting anyone out of my life that serves no fucking purpose. I’m starting to consider this with some people who are merely in orbit.  It’s not the usual suspect either. I’m just sick of being treated like a throwaway commodity instead of a useful freind. I just lost one of my good freinds and it cut deep. I don’t need any fake or fairweather fucking freinds.


If your actions affect me it is one thing, if your actions affect more than me it’s completely another. If you hurt someone I care about, here’s a fucking fact. I don’t care about myself. I’m fucking done playing nice. Affecting me is one thing. Affecting those I care about or hurting one of them, I’ll gladly take the bullet. 


If you give me a reason to show my fucking dark-side I wont fucking hesitate. This monster has teeth. And I’m not afraid to fucking show them.


I can and will turn fucking cold on anyone if I think your intentions are less than fucking pure on someone I care about. Period. Hell holds no surprises for me, neither does this earth. I’ve already seen the worst of it and I know how to read people. If i don’t trust you there’s a damn good reason.


Certain behaviours show exactly the kind of people I choose to associate with. And who I choose not to bother with.  I’m getting to a point where I will easily walk away from anyone that is drama in my life. So an insignificant insect in the scheme of all the long days of my life? You were already forgotten.


You merely proved yourself recently. And you know what, I’m absolutely fine with finally eliminating gnats from my life. You wont be the first annoyance that benefited my life in exactly a zero meaningful way. And you wont be the fucking last. 


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