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Tranquil Fury.


Harrasing and threatening my child? Are you fucking kidding me, the fact that you are my child’s blood, that has no meaning. The way you treat him and his mother has ever bearing on me and how you and people like you destroyed my relationship with my little family. You should have not interfered.


I have spent years angry at the wrong person while also suspecting the root cause. Now I’m completely sure if it. Im also sure that I’m not afraid of getting my metal covered hands dirty. I was willing once upon a time to do two years less a day over most precious blood. Prison holds no illusions for me. If it means I go down protecting what means the most to me. I’m good with that. 


I’m going to hell for the things I have not done. Biggest amongst that is the fact that I wasn’t there when they needed me most.


But you will not hurt them the way you have the past two decades. I’m a villian and an outlaw, I don’t give a fuck if i go down hard protecting them. But if I go down hard. I’m taking you with me.


Don’t worry when I’m yelling and loud. It’s time to worry when I go deadly quiet. That’s when you’re about to have a fucking problem.

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