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Popular Monster.




As for anyone that disrespects me or try’s to take advantage of me, I’ve moved on from what I loved for things I love more… i won’t tolerate being taking advantage of from anyone. Not her. Not from someone I once thought was my freind. No one I’ll walk away first.


I don’t care if this thing is popular, it’s also an emotional drain and it has its negative aspects. I walked away from money on the table ten years ago from it, what makes you think that I have any interest in something that doesn’t pay a cent and costs me money?


Fuck off. 


I will ride or die for my true friend’s. But fucking fair-weathers that only take advantage? You don’t live in my fucking world… you don’t know what I fucking deal with every day, you don’t get to fucking talk down to me or anyone I care about. that’s simply not happening. I’m popular sure, everyone loves me.


But I still look into that mirror and see a monster. And I’m fucking fine with that. I’m good, you can love me, you can fucking hate me, I don’t give a shit.


You will fucking respect me.


For those that don’t respect me in my personal life, I will abandon them when they fuck me over. If all you are is adjacent to that, I’ll fuck you off faster than you can say, Toronto.  I don’t care how long the friendship has been. 


I’ve burnt bridges before, all I fucking need is gasoline. Another one won’t fucking hurt. The fact you know what this week is and what this month is and you are one of the few people outside of family that knows that?  And to think at one point I called you family?  


At the end of the day I know that all I am to some is entertainment and an afterthought. Being with my actual nephew who treated me with actual respect and appreciation yesterday proved that. So to be disrespected by someone I trust? The friendship can and will end. I don’t like fair weather people. 


And I know how I see in the mirror. Look at the pit where I go to have fun and to release Agee’s soon. Might not be a brilliant idea to piss me off. Or disrespect me.


I know what I am, it’s just darkness masked by more darkness. I might be popular and liked to be around. But at the end of the day I’m not meeting your parents or your girlfreind. I’m still a monster, even if I’m a popular one.


Don’t make me your enemy. There are already enough people that fear me. Some are justified. Some are about to be. And some just need to fuck the fuck off. 


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