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Rain…

It’s been 12 years and I’m still driven to tears thinking about you. This has been the burden of my lifetime. And knowing that if I had been there something might have changed. This is the sin that earned me damnation. I wasn’t there. I’m sorry I failed your daughter and your grandson. I’m sorry I wasn’t there to protect you. I should have tried harder to be in their lives when she pushed me away. 

I’m haunted by that night and my absence. I always will be. I should have been better. I should have been there.

I will keep my promise to you. No matter what it takes. And you will never be forgotten. One day I will till him myself how much we loved you, How much we still love you. I will always be there for your daughter, I have to be. 

I loved you, you were one of the first people to love me unconditionally. I will always do the same for Jennifer and Joshua. I don’t care what it takes. One day I will fix what went wrong. Even if it takes till my last day.

That’s the promise I made, that’s the promise I’ll find a way to complete. 

You are not forgotten. You are missed. 

I will always be here for them, to protect them. I will never let her know I am weak and I’ll pretend to be strong for them. And tell her I love her every chance I get. Especially on a day like today. She deserves that. I promised you that.

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