The Eagle Flies Alone.

I am fine on my own. I don’t need friends or people around me especially people that use me. I had enough of that growing up and enough of being manipulated into my teenage years. I am fiercely independent for a fucking reason. No one controls my destiny. It’s entirely mine. I get to have fun and do things on my terms. Period. Always.

Anyone trying to control me or tell me what to do with anything in my life is going to fall and fail badly. Because I don’t do authority, I don’t play nice and no one tells me and my loved ones what the fuck to do.

I don’t do control. And anyone that thinks that’s they can influence me in any specific direction is about to fail and fall. Attacking those I care about? Might want to sit and reflect on who I am, esp in the Niagara Falls community. I don’t care. It’s part of my charm. And I will always choose those I care about over someone merely in my fucking orbit.

You offer nothing I can’t do on my own. And it’s time for me to be doing it on my own. Id rather be a dying dwarf star than a black hole that just traps people within. It might be time for this bullshit to end.

But like everything in my fucking life, I’ll do it on my terms.

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Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.

The Remedy

I am reminded when I need someone how truly alone I am in this world. Because for as much as I am the constant and the shoulder to cry on. The same respect isn’t accorded to me, obviously. It hasn’t been in years. This is why I have never and will never need you. I don’t need anyone. Especially when I am fucking hurting over a lost freind. I hurt, I get to do that. I’m fine with that. I process and move on. I spend a couple days where I block out the world and keep going but I’m fine. I don’t accord anyone I don’t trust or respect the time of day. It’s not about who it is. I’ll willing burn a bridge im fucking standing on if it means I take you with me if I see you as my enemy. I’m on a quest for peace, anything that gets in the way of that or causes turmoil in my life can get the fuck out of my way or become ash, because I will go the fuck thru you. Affect my responsibilities in my life, I will accord the same respect you do to them, I don’t mind being a blunt instrum...

The Threat.

I an not a nice person. I am not polite or nice. I am scary and intimidating and I draw power from that fact. You fuck with the people I love and hurt them, I’m going to damage you in kind. I want people afraid of me. It means I’m respected. It means you’re intimidated. I would rather be horrifying damaged and leave with nothing if it gives me the power and the freedom to protect my friend’s and family. Keep in mind a man with nothing to lose once had everything slip thru his fingers. And I have no fucking problem being a threat, to you, to my enemies, to society. You name it. I simply don’t care. The best defence has always been to confront and attack whatever the source of the problem. It hasn’t always brought me victory but at some point it’s brought me peace knowing that I’ve never backed down or done anything to hurt anyone. Just responded to what has happened to me and the ones I love. You don’t want to be my enemy. It’s a bad place to be. And once you are marked as su...

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